6/52 nom nom nom
Happy 3 months old my dear baby boy! It has been a roller coaster ride for mama from the day we brought you home, with all the sleepless nights, the never ending crying, 24 hours feeding on the clock, burping, pooping, diaper changing, pooping again and again and again. But you know what baby boy, mama is so proud and blessed to have you that I would do it a million times over again without doubt. I may have a zillion things to do in my mind but since having you I have learned to blocked everything and just focus on one thing at a time and that is you.
“For what it’s worth: it’s never too late or, in my case, too early to be whoever you want to be. There’s no time limit, stop whenever you want. You can change or stay the same, there are no rules to this thing. We can make the best or the worst of it. I hope you make the best of it. And I hope you see things that startle you. I hope you feel things you never felt before. I hope you meet people with a different point of view. I hope you live a life you’re proud of. If you find that you’re not, I hope you have the courage to start all over again.” – The Curious Case of Benjamin Button.
Did you noticed that sometimes when you planned something, it just don’t turned out the way you’ve imagined it to be but when something is done that instantly, at that moment without any planning, things just fits nicely. That typically explained why I’ve never bothered to set time or day to shoot my three girls and their baby brother. I just wait for the right moment, usually the best time is when they are getting ready to go somewhere and everyone is well dressed and in a happy mood. But that don’t tend to happen everyday, so the only thing I can do is to just go with the flow and start somewhere. Khaled is slowly having his own routine now. He wakes up two to three times at night for feeding and will doze off immediately after that. He is my human alarm clock. He will wake up again at five in the morning for feeding and that will be the start of my day. At first it was difficult to wake up from your deep slumber but then your body starts to adjust and now I am enjoying my quiet time in the house when everybody else is sleeping. It is amazing what babies can do to you. You learn to do a lot of things quickly and swiftly. Kinda like a ninja! Being a working mom and looking after the family is huge responsibilities.
My daughter once said to me “Ma, sometime people are so rich that all they have is money.” Yeah, I am lucky I get to do this with the support of my amazingly loving husband and not to forget my family who has always been there since day one. Should give thanks more to Allah for the little things instead of complaining. That would be on my small-goals- to-accomplish in 2014.
On a different note, I am already getting a few request for a family portraiture session and also a maternity session where the mother is expecting twins, that should be exciting! If you have been following me, you should have notice that I only take a few session at a time so as to keep it as boutique style and to also keep up with my busy schedule as a working mom. I am planning to do a few more slots and if you are interested to have me to document your life, please drop me an email at firstname.lastname@example.org and I’ll be glad to entertain you.
I would also like to take this opportunity to wish all our Chinese friends “Happy Chinese New Year” and Happy Holidays to the rest! Enjoy folks!
Dear hubby, although my face is looking very disgusted at you (blame it on lack of sleep and very very low supply of coffee) and I sometimes rant without giving you warning, do know that I love you and am thankful for everything.
4/52, King of the Castle
Your sisters decided to join you this week and boy did we had so much fun. You are already two and a half months and judging by the look on your sisters’ face, you know that you are truly the king of their hearts. Know that your sisters will always have your back, come what may.
You bring so much joy and love into my life, little boy. Your sisters are also very highly addicted to you. Every morning Angah will knock our room and asked my permission if she can kiss you goodbye before going off to school. She said you smell so “wangi” in the morning. Same goes with Along and Adik, they can’t get enough of you. Now you’ve learned to smile when you see familiar faces. You love to cuddle with me, I guess you love the smell of milk all over my body. I cannot deny that I feel tired waking up in the middle of the night to feed you, sometimes as much as 3-4 times, but each time when I nurse you and when our eyes met, it’s like you are saying, “I love you mama and thank you for everything” and my heart just melts away.
Things happened for a reason that only the Almighty knows. And I know that you are my boy, my precious little boy.
I had the chance to join the wackiest bunch of people for a retreat at Tanah Aina – Farrah Soraya in Raub Pahang. I have heard of Tanah Aina for quite a while before and from its website I know it would be an awesome place for a retreat. The site is about 1.3km off the main road to Raub. The fun starts as we boarded the lorry with makeshift wooden seats. The bumpy dirt road made us jump off our seats. Upon arrival, we were greeted by the sound of crickets, birds and water flowing down the river. Just music to my ears.
If you love nature, Tanah Aina would be the best place to dwell. The cold river is just fantastic and not to mention the durian trees all around. There were a lot of activities lined up for us. We had the chance to go trekking to the waterfall and watch the sun rise the next morning.
The river here is full of kelah/empurau or also known as masheer. This protected species can only be seen in crystal clear waters. So you can imagine how clean the river is. 3 days seemed so short. It is a great pleasure to be here. Thank you to Tanah Aina and the marshalls for hosting us.
As I’ve said before, the view from the top of the hill was simply magnifique! Adios!!